Do you know what happened today?
I don't even want to say this...
I lost my cochlear.
I LOST MY COCHLEAR.
*headdesk and stays there*
I'm actually talking about the hearing-aid part of the cochlear. It sits over my ear and is the part that lets me hear out of my deaf ear.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. This isn't like like losing a pen or even my car keys! This is an expensive piece of equipment and I'm supposed to wear it as much as I can, so that my hearing improves each day. And now it's lying on the floor somewhere and it's not like I have my name on it!
It was so stupid! I went on the bike with Shelley today, and I had to wear a helmet. The last time I went on the bike, I was paranoid and careful enough to take the cochlear off first and put it in my bag, because I had noticed how tight the helmet was and didn' t want it to come off when I pulled the helmet off. Well, this time I just blithely put the helmet on and managed to forget I was wearing the cochlear. How could I forget that?!
I guess I'm just more used to wearing it now. Oh, the irony.
We went to a couple of places and walked around town for an hour or so, so there's several places where it could've fallen off. I only realised it was missing because I decided to turn it back on and try listening with both ears for a bit. When I'm with someone, sometimes I just use the hearing-aid for a rest. So I might have noticed sooner if I was actually going to use it! Oh, that makes me feel so much better.
Shelley must've seen the shock on my face, because she asked me what was wrong. And then we went back to to the bar and the library and bike to see if it was there. Noooo. I really didn't think we would find it though. And now I'm so depressed. I'm going to have to find out how much a new one costs and see if the insurance covers losing the silly thing. But, uh. I hadn't insured it yet. Yes, I know! Hopefully I can still put the forms through and THEN tell them I need a new one or something. But I'm sure there's a waiting period, they're not dumb. But I need to do something like this, beause I think they cost about seven thousand dollars. I don't have that kind of money lying around!
This could so easily have been avoided if I'd been more careful. It's just so typical of me. I'm not careful enough of my things. I'm going to have to tell Mum, and I can just imagine her reaction. Sort of disappointed and frustrated and sympathetic. *sigh* I'll do it tomorrow, I don't have the energy tonight. Got big bottle of coke here and will probably drink the whole bottle tonight. Since I'd only just decided to quit having cool drink all time and stick to water, this is kinda like falling off the wagon. WHAT THE HELL, I'M ENTITLED. At least I'm not breaking out the beer stash.
Where is it? Anyone picking it up isn't going to have a clue what to do with it. If I'm really lucky and that person is really smart, maybe they'll see that it looks like a hearing aid (and how many people know what a hearing-aid looks like?), so they'll ring up a hearing centre and ask what to do with it. And hopefully the hearing centre will know that the Lions Institute does cochlear implants and send it to them and I'll get a call. But they won't know to call ME unless I tell them I've lost it.
Maybe I won't be so upset tomorrow, but right now? Totally kicking myself.